Unbearable Agony: A Personal Battle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp sensation erupted behind my one eye. Then came quick shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically start with intense discomfort around one eye that lasts for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In 1998, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a calm volunteer guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But consultant specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional attacks are handled with acute therapy only. Longer or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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William Gutierrez
William Gutierrez

A tech strategist with over a decade of experience in digital transformation and AI-driven solutions, passionate about simplifying complex innovations.